Tears In My Blood

Nicolas Chamillet

Compositor: Nicolas Chamillet

Hands covered in blood, tears in my blood
Stars cut with kitchen knife
Expectations shattered like breaking a glass
I was supposed to be the morning light
But I was the fucking darkness, the fucking darkness
I chose the wrong side and it cost you your life
If I could change the past
I would change all my choices
Why did they hurt you
And that wasn't my purpose

I didn't want to leave you in pieces
But when I came to, I saw the knife in my hands
And you were chopped into methodically perfect pieces
The blood bathing my feet, was that what happened in the end?
Why was the book page torn from our last kiss?
Did you want me to cry for you?
Why didn't you ask me?
I would cry the whole fucking world, I would cry
I would cry, I would cry the whole fucking world

When your blood was no longer in your body
I thought about shedding some tears
To look a little more dramatic
Let's face it, our story was boring as fuck
There were supposed to be tears in my blood
But she had resentment stored
Our fucking love was already falling

Your phone is ringing
The number had a heart
Why did I feel the stab I gave you?
I needed to hide your body
Where would I hide? You were paranoid
Then everyone would know that you didn't disappear out of nowhere
They would know that I killed you because of your infidelity

When your blood was no longer in your body
I thought about shedding some tears
To look a little more dramatic
Let's face it, our story was boring as fuck
There were supposed to be tears in my blood
But she had resentment stored
Our fucking love was already falling

Was it fun to see myself biting my nails with anxiety?
Was it cool to see me break down over silly things?
Was it exciting to watch myself slowly fall apart?
Was it exciting to see me crying for you?

Now I can take revenge
Letting the tears fall down my face with happiness for the first time
The night was my best and only friend
I drowned in it when you ignored me
Now that I can say goodbye to her
Why won't you cause me any more trouble
And I lied in the first verse
Why it's cool to see others have expectations and break them in the same second

When your blood was no longer in your body
I thought about shedding some tears
To look a little more dramatic
Let's face it, our story was boring as fuck
There were supposed to be tears in my blood
But she had resentment stored
Our fucking love was already falling

I broke your damn trophy
I took revenge on my nightmares
Now I don't need to lie on my bedroom floor and cry my sorrows
Why I went through therapy and now I know how to deal with his advances
Honey, could you go to hell and then fuck off?
Hands covered in blood, hands covered in your blood