Broken TV

Nicolas Chamillet

Compositor: Nicolas Chamillet

I'm in a room full of memories
How it hurts to look at the past
It's like a broken TV into a thousand pieces
You can't rebuild it because it would hurt and break even more
In the middle of the night, in my best nightmares
I kind of find reality
Because everything that doesn't hurt isn't real
And everything that pierces is very real

It would be nice to think that this is just a phase
But I know it's not and I don't want to lie to myself
It's like a broken TV into a thousand pieces
If we touch our hands they would be pierced
Why glass is life and the rest is just feelings
It's fun to cry looking at the stars
It's fun to think that everything will get better

I'm in a dark and disturbing room
It's fun to think about the future and know it won't happen
You wouldn't last a second in the world I was raised in
It's like a broken TV into pieces of me
Seeing the blood is mesmerizing
But mine is too painful

What if I rebuild the TV?
Would all this improve? Would all this change?
What if I rebuild the TV?
Would all this improve? Would all this change?
What if I rebuild the TV?
Would all this improve? Would all this change?
What if I rebuild the TV?
Would all this improve? Would all this change?

You know I won't be able to rebuild it
Am I doing it here again? I'm not?
I'm lying to myself
I just wanted to watch fucking TV
But it broke when my life played in my movie
It's like a broken TV into pieces of me
I just want to fix it, but that won't happen

What if I rebuild the TV?
Would all this improve? Would all this change?
What if I rebuild the TV?
Would all this improve? Would all this change?
What if I rebuild the TV?
Would all this improve? Would all this change?
What if I rebuild the TV?
Would all this improve? Would all this change?

It's like butterflies in a cage
They don't grow and the future stops
I could pretend everything is fine
But it's too hard to hide the remains of the TV