I'm Giving Up On Myself

Nicolas Chamillet

Compositor: Nicolas Chamillet

I wake up every morning, with that voice in my head
Telling me I'm worthless, I'm better off dead
I’ve tried to fight, but I keep falling apart
What’s the damn point when I don’t even have a heart?

I'm crawling through the dirt, hoping for a break
But every single chance I get feels like a fucking mistake
What kind of power does a human even hold?
If all I’ve got is this damn weight that’s cold?

I'm giving up on myself, ‘cause I can’t see the light
Every hope I had just slipped out of sight
People say we’re strong, that we all have a chance
But I'm tired of this bullshit, I’ve lost my stance

I’ve sabotaged my dreams, burned them all to ash
Told myself I wasn’t worth even a tiny splash
Of success, of love, of anything at all
I’d rather stay down than pretend I’ll stand tall

I'm drowning in my thoughts, twisted in the dark
Every damn second feels like a broken spark
They say we’ve got power, deep down inside
But all I see is fear I can’t hide

I'm giving up on myself, ‘cause I can’t see the light
Every hope I had just slipped out of sight
People say we’re strong, that we all have a chance
But I'm tired of this bullshit, I’ve lost my stance

What’s the power humans have? Is it pain or fear?
I’ve been searching for answers, but nothing’s clear
Maybe the truth is, we’re all just alone
Pretending we’re strong, but we’re breaking like stone

I'm giving up on myself, ‘cause I can’t see the light
Every hope I had just slipped out of sight
People say we’re strong, that we all have a chance
But I'm tired of this bullshit, I’ve lost my stance

I'm giving up on myself
And maybe that’s okay
‘Cause I'm tired of fighting
I'm done with this play
What’s the power we have?
Hell, I’ll never know
But I'm giving up
I'm ready to let go