22 Years

Nicolas Chamillet

Compositor: Nicolas Chamillet

It started like any other, just another year
But soon enough, it became my darkest fear
Every door I opened led me to a wall
Every step forward felt like another fall

No warning, no signs, just a downward spiral fast
I let it take control, and the pain, it never passed

Twenty-two years, the worst I’ve ever known
Every mistake, it cut straight to the bone
I didn’t even fight, I let it all unfold
Now the weight of it all still leaves me cold
Twenty-two years, when everything fell apart
The pain sank deep and shattered my heart

I watched the world turn darker with each passing day
Hoped for a miracle that never came my way
Every plan I made crumbled in my hands
Like building castles in the sinking sand

No strength, no light, just shadows on my mind
And in the mess I made, no peace I could find

Twenty-two years, the worst I’ve ever known
Every mistake, it cut straight to the bone
I didn’t even fight, I let it all unfold
Now the weight of it all still leaves me cold
Twenty-two years, when everything fell apart
The pain sank deep and shattered my heart

But now the memory haunts me like a ghost in the night
I replay every moment, every wrong I didn’t fight
I wish I could go back, but the time’s out of reach
And the pain still lingers like a wound that won’t heal

Twenty-two years, now it’s all in the past
But the memory still cuts, it’ll forever last
I didn’t even fight, I let myself break
And now the echo of it keeps me awake
Twenty-two years, it carved deep inside
The pain still haunts me, no matter how I hide